My Restless Heart

Came home tonight very anxious, confused, and my stomach in knots. The whole drive home I kept hearing in my head, "Do not be anxious about anything..." knowing that the Lord was waiting for me to stop my brain from spinning, and turn my heart towards Him. And as much as I don't enjoy this restless feeling, I do love how every time it always leads me back to God's heart. It's always an opportunity for me to anchor myself deeper in God's love. And in the process of finding that safeguard in the Lord, I am reminded of the things that matter. Those little faces of the kids I work with everyday come to mind, their sorrow, hurts, and wounds. God asks us not to worry, but if I do worry, may I worry about their futures and how I can be a positive impact on them. God also ask us not to be anxious, but if anxiousness ensues, may I be anxiously praying for healing to come into their lives. And if I am to spend my heart in such a way that it is vulnerable may it be because I love those kids without restriction in a way that only God can teach. May my heart ache for God's Kingdom more than it does over hurts, trials, and confusion that I come across. May I worry about eternity more than I worry about insecurity, rejection, and heartache. And what a joy it is knowing that even when our hearts wander and we become restless about meaningless things, God is restless in His pursuit of us.