Watched a movie with a goodbye scene tonight and of course it made me cry. Ever since I packed up and said goodbye to all my loved ones in GP to live in Paris 2 years ago, I get weepy during any goodbye scene I watch. Though I'm back in GP with my loved ones now, I'm starting to tear up. I'm packing up and saying goodbye to GP again in 3 weeks. Everyone keeps reassuring me that it's going to be fine because I've done this before. And the truth is, it will be fine and I have done this before. But I think becoming familiar with a certain sadness doesn't make it any less difficult to deal with. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond excited for this next chapter in Texas, but I'm not looking forward to the feeling that comes with leaving people behind. And with each sad moment that comes a certain cynicism wants to creep in. Trying to convince you that opening your heart up to people is really too much to handle, that connecting with others is not worth the heartache that comes with leaving them. But it's wrong. I've learned that people are always worth it. We are meant to have relationships throughout our seasons in life. Some get to walk along side us, others stay with us in our hearts, and a few are in it for the long haul. And if it hurts to say goodbye to someone, it's a blessed indication that you are indeed spending your heart in the way it was meant to be spent. Thank God that He created us for community, thank God that He created us for Him, and thank God that He is there to mend the pieces of our broken hearts as we say our goodbyes.
"Build houses and settle down; plant gardens and eat what they produce. Marry and have sons and daughters; find wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may sons and daughters. Increase in number there; do not decrease. Also seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper." (Jeremiah 29:5-8)
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